Letting the Last Flame of Hope Die for an Ex

I am a hopeful positive person. I should say— I prefer to be. Life hasn’t been easy, but I make the most of it. I have plenty of critics and the loudest of them are usually the closest to me.

My ex-fiancé wanted to try to get back together. I never wanted to break up in the first place. I’m writing this on here because he will probably see it as I refuse to speak with him anymore. I’m sick of talking to a brick wall that refuses to compromise. He doesn’t want to marry me— probably ever, but I’m not taking that chance again.

I’ve been very upfront that marriage is important to me and he just wants to treat me as an option simply because I wanted to marry him and I believed in him.

He broke up with me purposely in December 2021. He tried to get back together around his birthday in April 2022. I haven’t been with anyone simply because I don’t move on easily. I also haven’t found anyone I am interested in and I probably won’t for awhile. Any past burning feelings I’ve had for anyone, I’ve let go. I’m just alone.

He, on the other hand, did get with someone who is apparently getting married. The irony is obnoxious. He got dumped and tried to run back to me. I’m just sick of playing the games, so I am done being treated as an option.

If I never find the right person, then it would be a shame— but it’s not the end of the world. I’m not playing games anymore. I’m not a child. I have other things in my life to look forward to. It’s just a different beginning of something new.

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