Short Story Collections
Weight and Dating
It hurt the first time I was told I was fat
It was a lie
I was 13, thinner than my mother
Thinner than my sisters
Thinner than most of my friends
When I actually gained weight because I was trying to hide from a psychopaths prying eyes
I wanted to be ugly
I wanted to be invisible
Anything, disgusting to keep him from looking at me
I clothed myself in black
I barely ate
My eyes blackened when I stood up each morning because I did not eat
But neither did I exercise
I was confined to a bedroom
To avoid his disgusting prying eyes
I did not want to fight
I just wanted to be left alone in solitude
When I first had my own money, I ate Taco Bell until I was truly overweight
I learned about calories and how to exercise
I was criticize by my entire family
"You don't need to exercise"
Turns out I do as the body I had built up from riding bikes for 4 hours per day or more
Requires exercise to lose weight
(Which I DO NOT enjoy)
Diet, unfortunately, is secondary
All men, including my own father, see when they see a woman is her weight
But what about them?
I've met guys who literally live in their parents basement and do nothing but play video games
and I am supposed to like them.
When they have no communication skills,
No ability to take care of themselves,
And they are fat because they eat chips and soda all day
I don't want to be their mother or their plaything
That's what dolls and the internet is for
For the fantasy that isn't real
I look for a husband
Not someone who I can take care of
Someone who is my partner and
Can share the work
If we both have to work full-time because of modern capitalism,
then I am not caring for the entire house.
Learn to clean and take care of yourself.
I am working daily on bettering myself.
I have more things to do than anyone I know.
I've accomplished everything I've done with little to no help.
I will be the one footing the bill for college.
I know how to take care of myself.
I know how to exercise.
I know how to lose weight.
It's just not a priority.
Be with a skinny chick.
But no one is entitled to anything
If you want a skinny chick, then be a skinny guy
Don't try to change me for your own selfish purposes
Don't try to mold me into your ex girlfriend and then
cheat on me
I am okay with who I am.
I accept my body for what it is right now.
Whenever I have children, I will be content.